Inspired by my dad’s blog post on his website here,
I’ve been thinking more and more about how much we as a society rely on norms to function and make decisions. As a graduate student, we expect during the quarter that we will be meeting classes at fixed times during the week, with some formative and summative assessments, with midterm and final exams and final projects. There are expectations set about when homework and paper are s due, how students will be participating in class, and how we interact with each other as human beings
COVID-19 has put a wrench into that. Thanks to the pandemic, some professors and graduate students have additional responsibilities such as providing childcare and schooling. For public health scholars, this means helping to find out what is fueling this epidemic and kicking their research into high gear, working to help the COVID-19 effort.
This pandemic has fundamentally changed how we interact with each other as humans. As graduate students, we spend hours on videoconferencing teaching and being taught, conducting meetings, and then also working on our own research. One of the challenges of graduate school is not necessarily working a traditional 9 to 5 schedule, with research and projects reaching outside of normal working hours. Working from home can make it hard to truly unplug as it is the new normal and your office is now not separate from your home.
As a third-year, my structure of having in-person required classes has largely disappeared, however, the amount of work has not stopped. It does not help that working for me is a bit of a coping mechanism, that I try to bury myself in work to feel less guilty about not being “productive enough.” I feel better when I spend another hour on that paper or that project, or that task for the class I am TAing for.
I’m fortunate to be working on two different projects that are COVID-19 related. One with Rocket Doctor, and a chatline staffed by undergraduate public health students trying to get their internship hours for their degree.
It’s hard because as an infectious disease epidemiologist, part of me wishes I could contribute more to the effort, but that would take away from working on my degree. My research is on hepatitis C, however, sometimes I feel bad that I’m not doing quite enough to help with COVID-19.
When I was doing my music education training, we learned that setting expectations in the classroom at the very beginning of the year was important and that it can be hard to change things up during the course of the year. Students do not respond well to sudden changes, so it helps to start off with a good foundation.
When COVID-19 forced the last week of Winter quarter online, with only a week between quarters, we had to figure out how change those expectations and set those norms for the upcoming spring quarter. More assignments and quizzes, online exams, and more opportunities for students to get those points. We included more leniency on homework and when it is due. We tried to figure out what students were feeling and how we could do better with anonymous surveys, and got creative with recording videos at home.
This is an uncertain time. It is hard to set norms and rules because we do not know what will happen and how long this pandemic will last. As someone who likes structure and hates uncertainty, it can be frustrating not to know what is going to happen for Fall Quarter, or what this new normal means for my graduate work.
Sometimes video conferencing just isn’t the same as seeing students in person during office hours or in class. We lose that interaction and seeing if they understand, or do not understand the material. Sometimes I think that students are less likely to ask questions during online class, and that limits the interaction further.
I have mixed feelings about online classes. I think they can be great for people who cannot take classes held at traditional times and can be a flexible option for those who cannot attend classes in person. During my master’s degree, I took several online classes. Although I enjoyed the subject matter, watching online lectures is tough, and I missed that in-person interaction with my professors. Theses classes always ended up being more work then I expected, and sometimes I just wanted to meet in person. That accountability of synchronous classwork was gone, and sometimes I would be doing things at the last minute because there were no in-class meetings. If someone asked me which style I preferred, I would always pick in person. I love school and that person to person interaction.
Everyone is processing this pandemic in different ways. I sometimes feel guilty because, for the first time in three years, I am able to spend a quarter together with my husband without having to fly back and forth.
Interacting with people over video conferencing can be more challenging than seeing them in person. Not being able to read social cues can be very frustrating and being unable to read the room because you’re there, but also not there at the same time.
These are uncertain times. Everyone is really stressed out and worried. All I can hope is we see the good in each other, have some empathy for ourselves and those around us, and keep progressing forward towards ending this pandemic.